I have been so sad with out my baby.....

I got laid off last year and have really been enjoying the time with my little girl. It has been hard, frustrating and sometimes crazy but in a wonderful way. But last week I got offered a job and had to take it. At first I thought “This will be great, I can get out of the house a bit” but now I just feel sad. I miss seeing her all day I miss nap time and snuggling in the morning. I wish I could get payed to be a stay at home mom, really is there any more important job? If people wonder what is wrong with children these days it’s that moms can’t be at home with them. Others are raising our children and we are hoping that they are doing a good job(there not) If I have worked my whole life up till now I should be able to get payed to stay home and raise my daughter. The whole reason for this post was to say I haven't been to the gym because I'm having Harper withdrawals. 

Modivaton.....

188 until my first triathlon!! Motivation to run here I come!!!

I'm back!!

You know how life  happens.......I get a cold, Harper gets a cold. And when she gets a cold there is no rest for me at all, I swear she only sleeps in my arms when she is sick. The next week I come down with the flu and it is BAD! I rest for two days and It looks like a bomb went off in my house. On Sunday was going to be the first day of my new job but they called my in a day early. Being home with my baby changed me. I was always a workaholic but it's killing my to be gone all day, but God has provided my this job for a reason and I will give it all I have.
          
Yesterday was Valentines day....... I had to work......it was crazy at work. I busted my but to get off in time and then sat around for 45min because Chris was running late picking me up. Needless to say I was annoyed at his tardiness and in a vexed mood. But when I walked in the house he had the same purple roses from our wedding waiting for me with a supper yummy box of chocolates(not that they will help my cause any) Harper, Chris and I sat on the bed trying each one and picking out favorites. After wards we took Harp to Grandmas house and went out to dinner, the food was good and I drank to much wine. LOL

My weigh ins have not been spectacular I have been working hard but I'm staying the same. It's my food that I need to work on now. It's funny that I love to run and swim I'll got to the gym for hours and I really enjoy it but I don't want to write down my food. It's not that I eat badly we almost never eat out we cook whole grains at home and eat a mostly vegetarian diet with vegetables grown from the garden. My two problems are 1. I love sweets so much!!!!XOXOXOXO not good for me BOO!
2. I eat large portions(mostly at dinner time)
I know what I'm doing wrong now I just need to stop doing it.

Weight this week 195lbs down one lb form last week!! Thank you flu!!

Have a great week all Love you all and God bless!!! 

   

So cold......

I procrastinated my run today. When I did go it was so cold I only made it two miles. It sucked but when I got home I was proud that I even went. Just a few weeks ago I would have just given up and stayed in the warmness, so all in all it was still a good day!!

So good....

Today was a crazy day. Harper is sick so I was up all nigh long. I didn’t get to sleep tell 10:30 when Chris got home from work. Being a stay at home mom this would not have been a big deal except today I had a job interview. I slept tell 1:30 showered and go to the interview. I got the job (I worked there in collage so I was a shoe in). I got home got dressed and headed to the gym. I ran 3.1 miles in 38:25!! Last week I did it in 39:10. I still got a sick baby but she is in a much better mood!!

A good day so far......

OMG........ My baby slept in her bed all night long!!! I mean I got up at 8am and was like "Something is wrong, maybe she stopped breathing or something and I RAN to her room where she was still asleep. So I got a long quiet night sleep for the first time in months. Breakfast was a smoothie and then when Chris got up he made pancakes I was going to skip it but they looked so good.  So with coffee, pancakes and a smoothie my breakfast was 13 points WOW! That's ok I still have 15 leaf for the day. Chris hit the gym and then when he got home it was my turn. I ran my first mile in 12min and a my first two miles in 25:30 I was so proud I think I yelled out loud.(sorry gym peeps) I road the bike for 30min and hit 7 miles(now only 5 more to go to reach the 12miles for the triathlon!!) It was such a great feeling to day to run for 6min strait with out getting really out of breath or feeling like my legs where going to fall off. I remember just last month when I started running I could hardly run for 2min intervals and to day I did a 6min run. I'm just to happy to be doing something that makes me scared. Sounds weird but I have lived a life where I'm afraid of people noticing me or looking at me but I'm doing this!! I also ran outside yesterday. That was one of the hardest things I have done so far on this journey(next to getting in a swim suit and going to the pool). I was so afraid that someone would yell at me or call me fat but I did it! I did weigh in on Sunday and I am at 196lbs not where I really want to be but I'm under 200 now and I will take it. I just keep thinking how much easier this will be when I loose 30lbs. If I enjoy running now I think I will really love it then!! We all have a good day, I will be back soon with more of what is going on in my life. -Ruthie

A sunny day!!

Harper and I got up early this morning and decide to hit the pavement, not with a run but for a walk. First we stopped at the library and then Fred Myer's to pick out new running shoes. I didn't find any thing so we hit the mall. On the way home we stopped at the park to get out some more energy. When we got home it had been two hours and three miles!! Ya go us!! I had a good eating day but I didn't count my dinner points again.(but I did eat small portions) and was craving sweets so I made a smoothie. Tomorrow is weigh in day and I'm excited to see how I do. I did start my period the other day so It might not be the drop I'm hoping for but I will do better next week. Well blogger's It's time to get my 24 on and snuggle my love!! God night and God bless.