I have been so sad with out my baby.....

I got laid off last year and have really been enjoying the time with my little girl. It has been hard, frustrating and sometimes crazy but in a wonderful way. But last week I got offered a job and had to take it. At first I thought “This will be great, I can get out of the house a bit” but now I just feel sad. I miss seeing her all day I miss nap time and snuggling in the morning. I wish I could get payed to be a stay at home mom, really is there any more important job? If people wonder what is wrong with children these days it’s that moms can’t be at home with them. Others are raising our children and we are hoping that they are doing a good job(there not) If I have worked my whole life up till now I should be able to get payed to stay home and raise my daughter. The whole reason for this post was to say I haven't been to the gym because I'm having Harper withdrawals. 

Modivaton.....

188 until my first triathlon!! Motivation to run here I come!!!

I'm back!!

You know how life  happens.......I get a cold, Harper gets a cold. And when she gets a cold there is no rest for me at all, I swear she only sleeps in my arms when she is sick. The next week I come down with the flu and it is BAD! I rest for two days and It looks like a bomb went off in my house. On Sunday was going to be the first day of my new job but they called my in a day early. Being home with my baby changed me. I was always a workaholic but it's killing my to be gone all day, but God has provided my this job for a reason and I will give it all I have.
          
Yesterday was Valentines day....... I had to work......it was crazy at work. I busted my but to get off in time and then sat around for 45min because Chris was running late picking me up. Needless to say I was annoyed at his tardiness and in a vexed mood. But when I walked in the house he had the same purple roses from our wedding waiting for me with a supper yummy box of chocolates(not that they will help my cause any) Harper, Chris and I sat on the bed trying each one and picking out favorites. After wards we took Harp to Grandmas house and went out to dinner, the food was good and I drank to much wine. LOL

My weigh ins have not been spectacular I have been working hard but I'm staying the same. It's my food that I need to work on now. It's funny that I love to run and swim I'll got to the gym for hours and I really enjoy it but I don't want to write down my food. It's not that I eat badly we almost never eat out we cook whole grains at home and eat a mostly vegetarian diet with vegetables grown from the garden. My two problems are 1. I love sweets so much!!!!XOXOXOXO not good for me BOO!
2. I eat large portions(mostly at dinner time)
I know what I'm doing wrong now I just need to stop doing it.

Weight this week 195lbs down one lb form last week!! Thank you flu!!

Have a great week all Love you all and God bless!!! 

   

So cold......

I procrastinated my run today. When I did go it was so cold I only made it two miles. It sucked but when I got home I was proud that I even went. Just a few weeks ago I would have just given up and stayed in the warmness, so all in all it was still a good day!!